Well Pony Commissions is closed. Have been for some time. Things have been going on for some time now and I guess I should update a little. I'm working currently 6-4:30 on overtime, I have a boyfriend that makes my heart glow with happiness despite the few times he does hurt my feelings. I no longer have a best friend and even though I miss talking and doing things with her. She couldn't handle my busy life, my new love interest, my ever slowly growing up-ness, and the fact I saw her true colors and couldn't come to an agreement. I miss writing but not with that negative dark spot in my life. So the fanfiction her and I use to write daily with has come to a close and an end. She can finish it for all I care as long as she doesn't take claim to my characters

Other then that it is extremely hot here I got sunburned yesterday and it hurts a little. First step to being tan again =] Feeling a little depressed at a few things and this keeps replayin in my head.

"I set goals and dreams high but I put my self far back away from the starting line. Afraid to take that step I further myself back against the wall in the shadows." All I get from people is that I'm bitchy towards them, I take things out on them, I put myself down, I'm never confident. When I do feel confident people shoot it down and trample on it. Thus making me feel bad about myself thinking that I can't do anything. Heh. Famous quote there.

"I can't do nothing right no matter what I do." it's my go to excuse.



sorry for the ramble. I've needed to clear my head for some time with really little to no one to talk with about it. HOWEVER! I've started to play the Warriors Orochi video game series for 360 here recently with my beloved Boo-bear (boyfriend). we're in love with those games and can continue to play them when we really need to get to bed But like music anymore. It gives me plot ideas for the fanfiction that should really be burned ....guess I'll just have to fill that with another passion and push writing out. tootles for now~